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Something bad I have done is destroying my whole life.
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anne007
I suffered extreme childhood abuse until i was 15.I was able to help myself with this. Then about 20 years ago, I met my husband,got married in 97.I got pregnant and had a child which was the best thing I ever experienced. After my daughter turned one, I started to gamble on the pokies.I also started to shoplift(with security cameras watching). It was crazy and I could not control it. It was like I stopped caring about myself, put on a lot of weight, always negative.It came to a end when I took money out of a ladies hand at the pokies. Something that I cannot believe I did. I went to court and received a fine and community service. I was so ashamed at what I did.
That was nearly ten years ago and I have not done any of these things since. As my husband moves around a lot with work, wherever I go, I am not accepted as people find out what I have done through security cameras that spot me.Then everyone finds out. I get treated badly and i am not that bad person any more. What can I do?