How do I prevent a relapse of anxiety and depression?

Thank you for your reply. 

I have refused to take any sort of medication, despite the fact that I do accept and understand that medication has a place in the treatment of depression, I believe it is used far too much as a band aid to the real problems. I accepted that I had deeper issues that needed resolving, that there was no quick fix and this way of thinking has served me well in the last two years. As you'll see in the post I made below, I've tried counselling, but it has always failed me. In the end I've depended on myself and myself alone.

I just want to know why this has occurred, nothing has changed. Each week I had been feeling better than the last, until now. There is nothing special at the moment, nothing stressful and nothing has change about my life or living conditions or future options! It is completely out of the blue. 

Thank you for the reply, I appreciate it.

The thing is I've tried to get help from my GP and various counselling services but it never works. I attend one or two session, and then I simply don’t go any more. Like I said in my original post, I can’t be bothered getting out of bed so why would I go and talk to someone about these issues? I understand that as an adult I am the only one who is going to help me. I have no friends, merely acquaintances who have no idea what is really happening and my mother is far too wrapped up in her own world to notice. If I want to change then I have to do it myself, and for two years that worked but now I just can’t be bothered.
 
What is the point? It’s just so much hard work, in the end we’ll all die. I have no religion or anything to give me some sort of hope or faith, so it feels so pointless to try so hard, never get any results and then simply die. I wonder if it just wouldn’t be easier to end things now.
 
But I’m even too unmotivated to kill myself…Because I don’t like pain and I don’t like actually doing anything. So instead I’ll sit at my computer, night after night crying myself to emotional exhaustion, lurking facebook and wishing I was like everyone else.
 
The last time I spoke to a GP about depression he said, “Really? You look happy to me?” What does looking happy have to do with emotional stability? Thank you for the reply, I appreciate it.

The thing is I've tried to get help from my GP and various counselling services but it never works. I attend one or two session, and then I simply don’t go any more. Like I said in my original post, I can’t be bothered getting out of bed so why would I go and talk to someone about these issues? I understand that as an adult I am the only one who is going to help me. I have no friends, merely acquaintances who have no idea what is really happening and my mother is far too wrapped up in her own world to notice. If I want to change then I have to do it myself, and for two years that worked but now I just can’t be bothered.
 
What is the point? It’s just so much hard work, in the end we’ll all die. I have no religion or anything to give me some sort of hope or faith, so it feels so pointless to try so hard, never get any results and then simply die. I wonder if it just wouldn’t be easier to end things now.
 
But I’m even too unmotivated to kill myself…Because I don’t like pain and I don’t like actually doing anything. So instead I’ll sit at my computer, night after night crying myself to emotional exhaustion, lurking facebook and wishing I was like everyone else.
 
The last time I spoke to a GP about depression he said, “Really? You look happy to me?” What does looking happy have to do with emotional stability? 

I so understand how you're feeling.. I'm feeling exactly the same way at the moment. I don't have a lot of friends. Only really one or two that I could call good friends but when I'm having a bad day I don't call either of them as I don't want to be a burden. My parents both suffer from anxiety and depression as well. They try to help me but all they can say is hang in there it'll get better. I don't feel like things will get better… I too feel the same about dying. I'd never try anything as I don't like pain, have trouble swallowing pills, scared of needles etc.. basically I'm too much of a sook to take my own life. Sometimes I think people would be better off without me. I go on facebook and see people doing all these wonderful things and having so much fun and all I do is cry. My partner has so many friends. They're always messaging him on his phone and inviting him out to do stuff. I never hear from anyone. He doesn't go out a lot as he feels bad leaving me at home. I'm one of the nicest people you'll ever meet. I'm friendly and caring and would do anything for someone.. so why don't people want to be friends with me?
Last week it was R U Ok day. I put on Facebook that I wish I could be appreciated and stop feeling so inadequate just for one day. Not one person asked if I was ok… I have supposedly 250 friends on there and not one person? Obviously they're not my friends. I was so upset I deleted my profile.
I have been on and off medication for years. I hate taking it with a vengeance.. I want to be normal, happy and look forward to each day without having to take a pill to make me feel that way. Plus I hate all the side effects. I can't count on one hand the good nights sleep I've had in the past year and the night sweats and nightmares are just getting ridiculous. I'm so over everything just like you. I wish the ground would swallow me up most of the time.

I saw my GP a few weeks ago and asked if he could give me a mental health plan so I can see a counsellor. He told me I don't need one and I don't need medication as he believes he can talk me out of my depression. What the hell?

I went home in tears.. again. I feel like no one takes me seriously. I'm angry and jealous of people having happy lives when mine is up to crap. My poor kids don't know what emotion to expect when they wake up each morning. One day mummy is cranky and yelling and the next she's crying over nothing.

I hope things get better for you, I really do. xx